39


I know I'm getting old, and that doesn't bother me too much. Nothing I can do about it - out of my control completely. What bothers me is feeling old. That freaks me right the fuck out, to be honest. I know that 39 isn't the end of the world - far from it. I just can't get my head around the fact that I am that age. Me. Not somebody else, but me. I am really making myself ill here, so I'll just go right ahead and say it:

Get over it already, please. Thank you.

So, I got some really nice gifts for my birthday. Things like this. And this. And these (not the legs and ass, dammit to hell, but the shoes).

Happy Birthday to me!
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Look at me - I'm one of those losers on the bus!



I'm more than a little impressed with how easy it is to get from my neighborhood to downtown Seattle on the Community Transit busses. I was not quite to the bus stop when my bus arrived, and the kind driver took pity on a fat old lady and stopped to pick my ass up. I had started to jog, and consequently my boobs are nowhere near sitting in my bra properly, and it's beginning to get a little uncomfortable - but I'll discuss the current bra situation a bit later.

ANYway... the bus? Not so bad, really. It's particularly nice that I don't have to be at work at any specific time, since at this very moment the bus I'm waiting on is late. Ahem.
~deb :o)
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Got Dandruff! Some of it itches!


My children have become the Curse Police. My fine is a slap on the hand. I'd like to say, for the record: Big Fucking Deal, Ladies.

I don't want to upset them, but I can't help it sometimes. Often, I swear just to bug them. When Kierstin says, "MOM! You said the A-word!" my response is nearly always, "You mean ASS!!?", which irritates her. Heh.

I'm way to immature to be anyone's mother.
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hit the ground running... and screaming and waving my arms


So, the new job. Yay, hooray, and...

Holy. Fuck.

I've been here a week, and have already been assigned a huge task in the current project (due end-of-month, no less), and have been asked to lead the next project. Seriously, I wanted to run away screaming on the 3rd day. Back to Nebraska, even. Damn them for not asking me to stay sooner!

So, the folks here are really nice. I'm now working with a guy I've worked with before (he's the reason I got this job, truthfully), and some other genuinely decent folks. I share an office with a nice lady who chews gum. The way our desks are arranged, my choices were to a) have her staring at the back of my head, and my computer monitors, all day, or b) face the windows, with her in my peripheral vision (rather distracting, as it turns out) and my back to the open office door. I chose the back-to-the-door option. I've installed a rear-view mirror so as to have at least some chance of not being scared out of my chair every time someone walks into the office, but that's been about as effective as I thought it would be. Read: not very. I'm sure that once I get used to the glare in the mornings, and learn to tune out my office-mate, things will be rosy.

I think this job will work out, as long as my friend Rob keeps me busy on the side. He's a little pissed at me for taking the full-time position, but I really don't give two shits right about now. If I did what he wants all the time, I'd be traveling all the time, and that's not happening.
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