reality

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Originally uploaded by the*redhead

101:365@42

A dream you dream alone is only a dream. A dream you dream together is reality.
John Lennon

This is one I'd like to play with texture on, but I don't know what I'm doing, and I don't feel like learning right now.

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less

100:365@42
Originally uploaded by the*redhead

100:365@42

Less is only more where more is no good.
Frank Lloyd Wright

The 'more' that was my unruly mop had definitely reached the point of 'no good'. I love my hair when it's long, but only for a while. It was time to cut it off. Past time.

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sunny

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Originally uploaded by the*redhead

with snow in the forecast.

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sky

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Originally uploaded by the*redhead

with all there is
why settle for
just a piece
of sky?

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optimism

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Originally uploaded by the*redhead

NOT!

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tired

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Originally uploaded by the*redhead

...of being ignored.

...of wondering about the big B word, and how it affects me.

... of being blamed for everything.

... of waiting.

... of feeling like I'm behind all the time.

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mysterioso

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Originally uploaded by the*redhead

That was Jen's word, not mine. But I like it anyways.

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dog boy

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Originally uploaded by the*redhead

The word that comes out of my mouth most often these days is "nuisance". It's actually first after "NO!"

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apathetic no more

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Originally uploaded by the*redhead

The apathy of the people is enough to make every statue leap from its pedestal and hasten the resurrection of the dead.
William Lloyd Garrison

Apathy used to be a big thing with me. I was so apathetic in my marriage that there was nothing left worth fighting about.

I don't have that problem any more, and I make a conscious effort every. day. to make sure that I never go back there again. I was not a happy person then. But I am now.

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overdoing it

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Originally uploaded by the*redhead

Anything worth doing is worth overdoing.
Mick Jagger

Oh well. Maybe I did overdo it. It sure feels like it right now. This was the wrong month to get ambitious, for sure.

Work has finally calmed down, and I'm officially employed instead of a contractor. My relief is palpable. The benefits are spectacular, truly, and I'm looking forward to new projects. And working from home on Thursdays. Hopefully it will end up being 2 days a week - any more than that would decrease my productivity, I'm certain. While I'm better than I used to be, I'm still not perfect, and too much home time would be ... counterproductive.

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searching for words

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Originally uploaded by the*redhead

Is it possible to be a little bit devastated?

I'm trying really, REALLY hard not to be, but ... it's not working out so well for me.

I can't let it go, and I can't make it make sense in the larger scheme of things. It's just so ... out of character. And it's making me wonder things that I should not be wondering. And I'm having a hard time reconciling what I think I know with what I heard.

I've decided, though, to write it down, and then let it go. And hope that I'm horribly, terribly wrong about it all. And that I'll go back and look at what I wrote and be honestly able to tell myself that it was a one-time thing. Because I'll never have to add to the list. It won't become a list, just a one-off. And then I'll sigh in relief and remember how silly I acted over nothing.

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yeah

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Originally uploaded by the*redhead

phoning it in. literally.

meh

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